Silence ebbs over me – still, peaceful. The only sound is my steady breath as I slide into that quiet space inside my head. The one that allows me the freedom to just be. The one where the world ceases to exist outside of the exact space I am in current ownership of – in this case, my beautiful comfy bed. Sub has moved into the place which Little Girl has just vacated, tail between her legs after her punishment from Daddy. She was certainly more sedate by the end – but she knew Daddy loved her more than ever.
Every punishment made them stronger – the relationship between the two of them growing more vital and real with every spank, every tightened binding, every verbal scolding, every tear fallen, every gentle kiss to make it ok.
Little girl is a new member of my head spaces. One which I still struggle with occasionally having no ‘daddy-issues’ to speak of. But simply, I believe her to be an extension of Sub…she delights in being free to fly outside of reality as with sensation-seeking sub, whilst also revelling in the concept of knowing that she is undeniably, unrelentingly loved no matter what she does. Her sheer vulnerability and dependence on her Daddy to teach her right from wrong and love her regardless makes her different to sub. And her existence means that sub has grown up a bit and is a little stronger than she originally was now that Little Girl has taken away some of that sensitivity.
Don’t misunderstand me: Dom always loves sub – as much as Daddy adores his Little Girl…but D/s time together is borne more out of pleasure – even the punishments have a sensual edge to them. No matter the 200 slaps of the paddle which sent tears flying down my cheeks and made me pull and fight against the binds which tied me into the torture for as long as his heart desired – the ultimate aim for both is sex. The receiving of that agony and the giving of it is our version of the sweetest, most intense foreplay – knowing that all he wants is to soothe my pain, even whilst serving it; knowing that all he wants is to blindfold me, bind me to the doorframe, lift my legs around his waist and fuck his little sub while she cries out lost in the richest, all encompassing, swirling vacuum of intense sensations until he is spent and she is collapsed over his shoulder.
Knowing that all he wants then is to untie her and carry her exhausted, perfect being to his lap where he holds her tight and rocks and kisses her into oblivion.
Little Girl is not for pleasure. Little Girl is the ‘learning’ aspect of my lil kinks…it used to be sub, but with all my girls developing, it became necessary I suppose to separate them out further, like a child growing new aspects of their personalities, new likes and dislikes, new ways of behaving…learning as they go. Sub likes to learn, and then she likes to be fucked…and because the end goal is the pleasure, sometimes the lesson is not learnt all that well. Little Girl on the other hand takes the Real Life punishments – the ones which are given out to keep me safe. I walk home in the middle of the night all alone? Little Girl must learnt so that I am safe and do not do it again. Brat gives Dom a cheeky comment (then dashes away sniggering)? Sub takes her punishment, but since the cause of it was not life endangering, she takes it and gets fucked as well. It’s still an important lesson to learn – but it’s rooted in the fun of the partnership. After all where would Dom be without Brat getting me into trouble every now again.
It’s fun…it’s a game. It’s pleasure and pain.
So having accepted the punishment for my misdeameanor, Little Girl has taken on board the lesson. Now I am left alone…me and Sub. Me? Sub? Who am I left as as I lie here in the darkened room, the dawn slowly seeping through the curtains? I don’t know anymore – nor do I care. The peace is all consuming and I drift there happily.
I hear him, my Dominant now, entering the room. My body prickles…rarely after Little Girl has taken a punishment do I get the treat of being with Dom so soon. I may get strokes and rocked to sleep…but this? This is a treat – brought on no doubt by his worry, as he considers all the awful things which could have happened to the love of his life on that lonely walk home from town.
His initial anger gave way to panic and concern which led to Little Girl spending time bent over in front of Daddy and this beautifully welted red backside I am now fashioning. But now, it would seem that that adrenalin has given way to lust…and who better to deal with that than Dom and sub…
…the original characters in this game, this life…our little slice of heaven on earth.
They know one another better than anyone could. They have seen both the light and dark sides of this particular kink they share. But nothing, however dark, seems to be able to break that bond.
His need to dominate and his methods in doing so are the exact counterpart to her need to submit.
I feel the ball gag touch my lips. They instinctively open, and my teeth grip the cool, slip of the soft plastic as it fills my mouth entirely – my lust swollen lips now stretched almost to a sensation resembling pain. I bite down on the ball and release it, feeling the material give way to my testing and refill my mouth as i relax my jaw once again. I probe it with my tongue, trying to find a comfortable position for it. Flat against it? Underneath it? Hmmm…it’s just so big! I am distracted now anyway as I feel him lift my head to bring the leather studded straps around either side of my warm, flushed face, before I sink back down as the sensation of him tightening increases until I feel it hit the perfect spot and, locked in to place, his hands move away. Next the blindfold…cool satin covers my eyes and my heart rate skips up just the tiniest notch.
Finally, the ear plugs…he really wants to take me down to the very recesses of subs headspace tonight.
All in place, I lie there…the only senses I have left are smell and touch…and even that is limited with my hands bound. Because of this, my skin is now prickling – like live electricity is flowing through my veins.